So here it is... My very first blog. This I shall use as my venting vessel over the next few weeks, as I am embarking on something I am hoping will be life changing. Before I go to far with this I should specify I am an awful speller and my grammar has been known to make people physically ill, so if you should find this to be something that will be a problem for you then I suggest you stop reading now........
OK now, lets get this party started!!
So tomorrow I start AA. Yeah that's right. Its that kind of a party. So about 3 years ago after finally getting out of a very awful and verbally abusive relationship, (it was being in this relationship that my drinking finally came to a head and actually became a "problem" visible to everyone close to me) I finally admitted I was an alcoholic. Still my thoughts to quit drinking for good were few and far between, I would be so depressed and riddled with anxiety from my most recent binge, and swear off drinking forever, two weeks later I was back in bed ignoring anyone who tried to call or see me, while I laid in the dark downing my 3rd bottle of wine. Over the years my drinking has cause me 2 hospital visits, one for falling against the corner of my door way and splitting my head open, giving me 6 stitches and 8 staples, (and a new funny hairline), the other was when my in laws were in town for a visit, and all my new family members where at our house, I decided to down tequila straight and went into convulsions and rushed to the hospital yet again, I have gotten drunk at work, hid booze all over my house from anyone who would try and find it and take it away, I have cut of friends and family just so that I can drink in peace. All of this is just tid bits of the last few years, believe me I could go on for ages on the other stories... But due to my shriveled ego pleading for me to stop, and so that you may still continue reading with out wanting to kill yourself I will stop there.
OK so, that little ray of sunshine was just to give you an idea of the past so you can get an idea of how ridiculous my life has been and what a struggle I have had to stop drinking. It has not been that I don't want to quit, believe me, I HAVE TRIED, but no matter how awful my drinking has humiliated me, cost me more money than I care to even think about, and damaged my relationship with those closest to me, I still break and give in to alcohol, not always planning on drinking like a fool, but always falling back into that line of consumption. And so this brings us to a positive break down *finally* giving in and taking the steps to attend AA.
This blog is going to be a little journal over the next few months about my recovery, and all of the positive changes I am making in my life, along with some of the hard times I will go through, how my wonderful husband and I deal with these changes and how we bond, through successes met, and some of the set backs learned from. Many of these blogs I hope will be much funnier than this one. ;)
The End.
OK now, lets get this party started!!
So tomorrow I start AA. Yeah that's right. Its that kind of a party. So about 3 years ago after finally getting out of a very awful and verbally abusive relationship, (it was being in this relationship that my drinking finally came to a head and actually became a "problem" visible to everyone close to me) I finally admitted I was an alcoholic. Still my thoughts to quit drinking for good were few and far between, I would be so depressed and riddled with anxiety from my most recent binge, and swear off drinking forever, two weeks later I was back in bed ignoring anyone who tried to call or see me, while I laid in the dark downing my 3rd bottle of wine. Over the years my drinking has cause me 2 hospital visits, one for falling against the corner of my door way and splitting my head open, giving me 6 stitches and 8 staples, (and a new funny hairline), the other was when my in laws were in town for a visit, and all my new family members where at our house, I decided to down tequila straight and went into convulsions and rushed to the hospital yet again, I have gotten drunk at work, hid booze all over my house from anyone who would try and find it and take it away, I have cut of friends and family just so that I can drink in peace. All of this is just tid bits of the last few years, believe me I could go on for ages on the other stories... But due to my shriveled ego pleading for me to stop, and so that you may still continue reading with out wanting to kill yourself I will stop there.
OK so, that little ray of sunshine was just to give you an idea of the past so you can get an idea of how ridiculous my life has been and what a struggle I have had to stop drinking. It has not been that I don't want to quit, believe me, I HAVE TRIED, but no matter how awful my drinking has humiliated me, cost me more money than I care to even think about, and damaged my relationship with those closest to me, I still break and give in to alcohol, not always planning on drinking like a fool, but always falling back into that line of consumption. And so this brings us to a positive break down *finally* giving in and taking the steps to attend AA.
This blog is going to be a little journal over the next few months about my recovery, and all of the positive changes I am making in my life, along with some of the hard times I will go through, how my wonderful husband and I deal with these changes and how we bond, through successes met, and some of the set backs learned from. Many of these blogs I hope will be much funnier than this one. ;)
The End.
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